Sad to Happy

I lost myself after she removed me. A feel of guilt ran through my heart for viewing her profile so manytimes. The other side that I had a chat with her didn’t let me to ecstasy. Sadness was all I was in. I waited for her in online the rest of the day thinking that she may come online, but sooner her account was nowhere in orkut. I refreshed the page several times, searched with her name, email id but I gained   nothing. Her account was deactivated and my eyes had tears. I was not so-emotional person but  something made me to cry, may be my love towards her.

 I took my i-pod and started to listen the music. My ears didn’t enjoy the music but it listened to the  lyrics carefully. That was the time I realized our mood rules our listening. When we are happy, we enjoy the music in the song and when we are sad, we listen to the lyrics of the song. The songs made my eyes  to shed more tears so I threw it.

 On the other hand Sara was calling me continuously and I was ignoring her every time. I didnt know why I suddenly lost interest in talking with her. I get frustrated whenever I see her name in my mobile display. Something was terribly wrong with me.

 Few minutes later I went online found no updates. So I logged into my mail id and a shiver ran throw my spine. Rika was online! I suddenly pinged her a “hi”. Few seconds later I got the same hi back.

“ How are you Rika? Good to see that you use your email.” I sent.

 “It was just yesterday we had a chat and again you are asking how I am, and of course an email id is essential for a college student.” She replied.

Her reply was just like a slap hit on cheek. She replies as if she doesn’t have any interest. So I thought of getting into some topic. Suddenly my fingers typed ”It is my habit to ask about anyone’s wellbeing  whenever I talk to them. I will be coming to banglore next weekend.”

 “Ok. What makes you to bring here?” she asked

 I tried to con with something but nothing struck my mind. The time passed. She sent “hello”. “Sorry had small work and just returned back. Where were we?” I answered.

 “Check the above conversation.” she said

 “A national level cultural event is going start at Acharya institute, and I’m participating in some events” I said by gathering this information from some website in google.

 Oh ok have fun! She replied.

I thought for few minutes and asked her ”what have you thought about creating a facebook profile?”

 “Still I’m thinking about it and why are you keen on it?”

 “I’m not keen I just asked whether you have created or not. If you had created thought of sending you a   friend request.”

“Only because of this I deactivated my orkut profile. All insane people send me request and most of time goes in declining their request.”

 “Hope those are strangers and I’m not in that list ;-)”

You are a semi stranger. Don’t worry I will send you a request if I create one. Got to go, bye.  She said and went offline.

My heart felt light after chatting with her and all my worries flew away. So I got mail account to chat   with her. I jumped, danced. I didn’t know how to celebrate it. I called Sara and informed her that I’m on  my way to her house. I went to her house and sneaked into her room. She was in her night suit sitting in bed with a sad expression in her face.

 I reduced my excitement a little and said “Sara am sorry for whatever I did. I was not in a good mood.”

 She didn’t answer. I sat near her, kept her head on my thigh and whispered in her ears “I can get angry  only on the person whom I love more.” Still there was no reaction.”Darling I know I was harsh on you but head ache was horrible and any one on my situation would have done the same. If you have forgiven me give me a kiss on lips else if you are still angry give me a kiss on cheek.”

She smiled and sat up face to face. She gave a kissed me on my cheek and saw me. I made my face like a small baby who is about to cry and that gained me a kiss. “Baby I’m not angry on you” she said and made my lips wet. She looked sexy in the night suit and I complimented her. she said she would dress   up and asked me to wait in the lawn. I waited for few minutes and she said she needs to do shopping. We went to the nearby mall and selected two tops and a pair of legins. As it was my selection we returned home soon and we danced for the music in her room. I could just celebrate like this.

P.S. When you have options priority comes ;-)

I wish we would be FRIENDS again

When I get up in the morning Rika was going through my mind. My face was frowned and I look into everything keen, as if I am in a serious thinking. I didn’t wish Sara a good morning even and didn’t attend her calls. I need to know the reason why Rika took me from her friend list. I decided to avail leave today to college as I have planned something to do. I called Sara.

“Hey my head ache is bad and I’m not coming to college today.” I lied.

“Still you have head ache from last night? Did you sleep last nit and did u take any medicine?” she asked.

“No I did not take medicine yet and will have one now. This head ache didn’t allow me to sleep and I’m very tired call you later. Love you Sara.”

“Love you, take care.” She hung the phone.

I didn’t understand why I have such feelings on both? Do I love both? Or is it something like infatuation? Whom do I need in life? Either Sara or Rika? As far as now, both are important to me. I took my chair and kept it under the ceiling fan, sat, closed my eyes resting the nape above the chair and thinking about Sara and Rika. In a few minutes I felt asleep. Phew! A not-so-tight-slap on my left cheek made my face to turn right. My body flushed hot, I arose in anger and found it was Sara. Why the hell did you slap me? I yell at her.

Don’t I have a right to slap at you? She shouted.

I have a bad head ache and I don’t want to tiff or quell with you. Will you please allow me to rest? I said calmly.

I don’t want to go to college without you and I’m going to stay right here and take care of you.

No I don’t want anyone to be near and attend college now. Please stop these filmy dialogues, it’s disgusting.

You are sick and you talk sick. She said and slammed the door.

Then there was Rika. Hope I don’t love her, of course, but I was certainly infatuated with her. Men get infatuated with girls, I argued to myself, in spite of being genuinely in love with their lovers. It happens every day of the week; it has always happened, and it will always happen. You pass through this life but once, I said to myself, and you would be a mug to miss such an opportunity. I want to love Rika but I don’t know she is interested or not. She took me out from her friend list now, so I don’t know I can still talk to her or not. If she is interested I will surely love. Of course it isn’t strictly playing the game with Sara, but men are doing that kind of thing every day, so why shouldn’t I? What the eye doesn’t see, the heart doesn’t grieve about. So long as Sara doesn’t find out, and I’ll take damned good care she doesn’t find out. I really believed what I was telling myself. So long as Sara didn’t find out, all would be well. Go ahead, I thought don’t take any chances, but don’t miss this opportunity. In my present mood, it now seemed ridiculous not to have told her about Rika at first itself, and it would be absurd to say about Rika later, when I get into a point of selecting one. I didn’t want to hurt Sara by saying it now but I should say it later without hurting her. The only good thing I have done is that I have already told her that I can’t promise her for a long term relationship.

I slept and got up at 2pm. Refreshed myself, ate lunch and sat in my pc. I surfed the net until it is 3. Then I got ready to chat with Rika as this is her usual timing. I hope she comes today. A few minutes later, I received a scrap from Rika.

It said ”Rika: sorry I don’t think I know you and your face doesn’t seem to be familiar. I wonder how I accepted you. I don’t wish to talk to any stranger in orkut and I’m going to deactivate this account now. It is just annoying me.”

Oh my goodness she has replied me. She never replied any strangers but she has replied me now. So this is something positive. I typed a reply “I know you don’t know me and I don’t know you either. But we have met a couple of times in Leo club. Just we have not spoken to each other. As we both were in same club I thought of talking to you in this site. Nothing else than that. Is there any other reason for ruling me out of your friend list? And I wish, we would be friends if you don’t have any problem” I hit reply and waited for her reply. Thank god I was able to recall this information she had provided in her profile. Hope I managed the situation well. Let’s see from her reply.

In a few minutes I got a reply from her ”Oh nice to know that you remember these but sorry I don’t remember any. I hope we won’t be able to continue our friendship as I’m going to deactivate my orkut account. If I again join I would surely say you. See you.”

“Facebook is a new emerging site in which you can be without any troubles if you set your privacy according to your wish. And our club needs everyone to have an e-mail id and account in a social network. Hope you would join in Facebook, send me friend request and like our club. See you.”

“Yeah I am thinking of creating a profile there but yet I have not decided. If I join I will send you request.

Got to go catch you later. See you.”  She replied.

I wish we would be friends again. I felt a slight relief after sending few scraps and I would be serene if she sends me request in Facebook. I hope for the best to happen. I called Sara and apologized for that yell and she forgave instantly because of headache.