I sat near Sara seeing her condition. She was lying in my lap and holding my legs tightly to not let me go anywhere. She had turned to pale. Her body looked as if she is not well for years. Her rosy lips had faded out. Chubbiness had gone down. Her tiny eyes had shrunk more with dark circles below. I realized how fool I was to make Sara like this. The meeting with Rika played in my mind. I suddenly got conscious.
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To just meet Rika I have gone till Bangalore leaving Sara
and my family here. Who is she? I have never met her before, she was neither my
class mate nor my neighbour. I have just seen her photo in a social network and
got impressed. It was like admiring beauty of an actress. But I have walked
like a mad on the streets of Bangalore without knowing where I was heading to,
sneaked into women’s college without any proper permission, searched throughout
the college for her, escaped from a major police case with the grace of a
lecturer. I did too many things in the last 3 days just to see her. Why did I
do these? Am I in love with Rika? Is this they call love at first sight? But as
soon as I heard Sara’s name I felt jittery and I wanted to see her immediately.
When I came to know she was sick, my heart pumped quickly than usual,
increasing adrenaline in my body. The moment I saw her I broke down with few
drops in my eyes. What the hell is going on with me? Why am I affectionate to
both of them? For one I could leave everyone and go anywhere just to see her. For
other I don’t care the world around me when she is around me. Insane. I can’t
break someone’s heart with disappointment. But I should decide something soon,
else there would be a serious problem that could reflect on me as well. But for
now I couldn’t decide who would be best for me? All I came to know is, if I go
for Rika I could forget everyone and everything. Hope I am crazy on her. Anyone
would go crazy if they see her once. But a small separation between me and Sara
is affecting her so much. I forgot her easily during the trip but that doesn’t
mean I am not in love. I love her but I still don’t know how I forgot her. Rika
has affected me so much. But sara’s condition is terrible. Three days without
food, longing to talk to me and I have ignored her call when she called me. I’m
such an idiot. If I had spoken with her once this wouldn’t have happened. What
will their parents think? For my pleasure I have been giving pain to many. But
this should not happen anymore. From now I should take care of Sara well and
once she is strong I should tell her everything. But how will she take it? This
should not turn into a big problem. I should cluster up everything properly and
smoothly.
Jay asks you:
I still have a doubt
on whether am I true to anyone? I have lied to Sara and my parents too. Whom do
I love? what I did with Sara is right or with Rika is right? Having been
travelling with me for so many days I believe you would have known be better. So
do comment your views below.
