Something weird but divine

The worrying mind faded out after seeing her picture. Her picture was the heal for my wound. The ecstatic moment kept me very happy which I had never experienced. A sudden glow in my face, new smile, happiest ever was unremarkable and it was noted by everyone. Those who asked, earlier in the month, “anything wrong with you?” substituted their question with “how did this change happen all of a sudden?” All I could answer was with a rejuvenating smile.

Everyone noticed the difference and everyone liked it. “Be like this forever” my parents said, “happy for your change” Sara said. “All credits to you Rika” I said to my heart. This happiest moment made me to forget all those worrying things including chatting Rika. But all I needed was to see her photo, I saw it and I was content with that. Let me make other moves later.

The stalker in me started growing up. The privacy setting annoyed a little at first but stalker provided the solution for it. I wanted to have her picture as my wallpaper both in my pc and mobile. I made many attempts to download the picture but everything went in vain. Then the stalker made a screen shot of her picture screen, saved it and my computer’s screen had her picture instantly. Second task was quite difficult. My mobile had small display screen and I did not want her picture to be so small. I urged my dad to buy me a new mobile and that made my hand to have Nokia N97. Frankly, I neither had any knowledge on these mobile phones nor to use it. I bought this mobile just to have her picture as my mobile wallpaper.

As soon as I bought the mobile I made her picture as wallpaper. Then using photoshop I cropped, trimmed, added effects, changed styles, faded in and out etc. It is with her photo I learnt the whole of the photoshop. I practiced all sorts of effects that this software can do and saved it in a separate folder named “Rika”. After using all the tools in photoshop I was stunned to see 492 files in Rika’s folder. I looked at her original picture and She looked gorgeous even without those effects. She is my beauty.

I still attended my last class everyday and I still watched every second of her online. My new mobile helped with that and kept Sara away from questioning. I felt I was closer with Rika now. It was her picture I would see last when I close my eyes to sleep and it was her picture I would see as soon as I open my eyes in the morning. Each and every second of my life was awful after seeing her. The harmones made a different feeling after seeing her picture. Love. Something weird but divine.

Love makes a person fresh, attractive, joyful, witty. It’s a real because Jay experienced it.

P.S. Love is not something that will annoy you. It is divine and it shows the other part of you.

Few heart beats skipped

That accident scene created a little impact on me. That scene was haunting me for 3 nights and did not allow me to sleep. Even when I was in college that was the only thing I was thinking of. I could not delete those scene from my mind. I tried a lot like trying to play cricket, football, playstation etc. but I couldn’t concentrate on anything. That had made me to forget my orkut account which I was online for 24X7 and rika whom I was stalking 24X7 in orkut. Nothing reminded me to go online. Every minute my mind was thinking of the same question “why aren’t people helping?”

The college scenario have changed again to past. I have started sitting near sara. She spoke about lot of things but everything went in vain. I just heard her but never listened. But she was clear that, my abnormal behavior is because of that accident and not because of any other reason. I started attending the last classes everyday and I looked lost to everyone. All students and staffs in my college enquired is anything wrong with me. I replied them “I’m alright”.

It’s been 3 days I have seen you online. why don’t you visit your orkut profile and check the updates? Sara said.

As soon as heard the name orkut, Rika’s orkut profile flashed on my mind. I have been without seeing her profile for so many days. What would she be doing? How would she be? How will she look? Suddenly I started thinking about rika. I left the class and reached home.

I logged in to orkut and it directly directed to rika’s profile due to the bookmark. I was stunned to look at her profile. She has actually uploaded her picture as her profile picture. I was not sure it was her picture. The picture was too small that I couldn’t see her face clearly. I opened her photos and it was the only photo apart from actor's photo. I clicked her profile picture to make it enlarge.

The picture was loading and hence I minimized the tab to see it after it is fully loaded.

I was dazed on seeing the picture. Like every other authors, I also experienced the same thing after seeing her picture. “Few heart beats skipped”. After seeing that picture I decided, If I live a life it should only be with her.

She was dead gorgeous. A fair flawless skin kept her bright. Her face was round like many small teddy bear’s head. A big and clear eyes was very cute and the kohl made the eyes bright, sexy and I loved it. Her hair was not curly but wavy.  She was wearing a sky blue tops with pink shawl and a denim jean. A camera pouch was around her body. A black strap watch was in her left wrist. The background of the picture had a blue staircase in which a boy was on knees at the last step and the girl was standing on the top step. The whole picture was blue and pink. She looked cute. The dolls were pretty. Hence the picture was dainty.

But still I was not sure it was her picture or not. I needed to cross check with it. That is when some of her friend made a comment on her photo. It said “It’s been ages I have seen you and you have become more pretty than before!”

Finally I saw her picture. I tried to download the picture but I couldn’t, due to her privacy settings. Yes  she should really protect her photos else she might take over Kareena Kapoor’s place overnight.

That relaxed my mind and slept peacefully after 3 nights.

P.S. Love at first sight happens.

The Heartless Disgusting World

Peace of my life was shattered down. Sara started annoying me every now and then. Every second she had something or the other to question. She never left me alone. I was totally upset of her behaviour. I shouted, scolded, even I slapped her, but nothing was of use. She didn’t change anything irrespective of what I do. She was following me every time everywhere. But I never stopped bunking the last class of the day though it was a very tough task. I had to make her busy in some way or the other to escape from her. In two days she found out and became alert. The most important thing is she went her home only at nights. She had breakfast, coffee and dinner with me at my home and lunch with me at college. She never allowed me to do anything of my own and of my wish. Only at night I was free without Sara to visit Rika’s profile. I was awake throughout the night to stalk Rika’s profile and updated all her updates. She had not added anything new and that left me quite sad. I wanted to know more about her and see her picture madly.

Sara made me disgusting when she started bunking the last hour and followed with me to my house. I was not able to see myself in those-ecstatic-moment of seeing Rika online. She entered into every corner of my life. I started hating her to the core.

On my way to home, bunking last hour, Sara followed me.

What the hell is your problem??? I shouted at her in the street.

You are my problem. She said.

What???

I’m afraid of your eerie behavior.

I’m normal.

No you are not. As I’m being with you, you are acting to be normal. Why don’t you say what is your problem? You are just hurting me. Just think how we were few days back and how we are now? Why have you changed so? Is that because I’m not in love with you or do you have any other problem. I want the reason to know. Now.

I don’t have any fucking problem. Yeah you are not in love with me and why the hell you are bugging me like this. Frankly, you are just disgusting me. I would be happy only when you are away from me.

When I was shouting, a strange sound hit our ears. The sound was like a crash of two vehicles. We both looked around to check whether everything is alright. Far from us people were moving to a particular place. We rushed to see what had happened. A bleeding man was lying in road with his bike few yards away from him. His eyes were searching for something. The vehicle which clashed with his vehicle, did not stop to check what happened and just went away. Peoples who surrounded him didn’t get near him. As soon as I saw that person I immediately went near him, lifted him and rested him on my lap. His body was full of blood with a hand broken. He was trying to say something but he couldn’t, maybe it was because of pain. I shouted to get some water and call ambulance. But none responded. A man from the crowd repeated whatever I repeated like “anyone please get some water”. My blood flushed anger out and shouted at him “why don’t you get jobless fucker?” Sara went to a nearby petty shop, bought a bottle of water and called ambulance. I gave him water and I heard he was saying ‘my daughter’ slowly in pain. Only then we came to know he had his daughter with him in his bike. I asked everyone to search for his daughter. Few people helped us in finding his daughter and rest watched this scene, where as Sara looked after him. We found a small girl, around 6 years old, in a scrap yard few feet away from her father. I took her out from that scrap and said “don’t worry baby you are alright.” She was not injured much with just few scratches in her soft knees. I thought her father would have saved her from heavier injury. I and Sara accompanied with them in ambulance and admitted them in hospital. His daughter after having first aid caught hold of Sara. We had informed their family and they came in few minutes. His daughter left Sara after seeing her mother. Doctor said nothing to worry and we visited the little girl’s father. He thanked us, his little daughter kissed us and we left.

When I came out of the room the only thing which was going in my mind was why no one helped when an accident had occurred? Do they think they would indulge in any police case? Or is that no one has sympathy on others? Or don’t they have helping tendency from birth? Will they act the same way if it happens to any of their family members? Don’t they know how it would have felt to the one who had an accident?  

If I were in that situation, will anyone have helped me? Or will everyone would we watching me dying? May be anyone would have helped like me? How would I have felt if none helped me? The driver who clashed with him should have helped him to taken him to the hospital but that driver didn’t have any responsibility and went away. Why the hell on this earth people exists like these morons?

I didn’t get any answer for their worst behavior. I just wanted to know why they behaved like that. At least some one could have got some water for them or called an ambulance. But everyone starred at them and waited for someone to help. Is it a sin to help people who are suffering in accident? If you don’t help then at least don’t irritate the people who helps. Try to understand the mentality of the people who had met with an accident. If not don’t be a burden to them. A single call to ambulance will save a life and that would take you to heaven. I cursed all those people who never helped until I reached home.

And I thanked Sara for accompanying me that day. If she had not irritated me at that time we would not have helped them and saved their life.

P.S. Don’t always be a selfish. We are not just living for us but for others too.

I am not a Stalker

A few days passed. Life had changed from that night. Using mobile became less. Hours of online in orkut increased. Sending unknown friend requests were stopped. Accepting any friend request were barred by me. Rika’s profile was bookmarked to my Mozilla and Whenever I open Mozilla it directly directs to Rika’s profile than my profile. I ignored everything happened in my profile but never ignored anything in her profile. I was up-to-date with her updates. Many days I slept without looking my profile but I never slept a single day without looking her profile. By this time my mind had memorized all her information right from her date of birth to her college name. I was so strong about her information that if anyone asks me in the middle of my sleep I would answer them correctly. Stalking her profile became my hobby, my habit, my entertainment etc. I read her profile a zillion times. I read all her scraps to check whether she replies everyone or ignores all the scraps. I could find she replies only for few. But I had a doubt that would she reply for stranger like me? Yet this question kept me away from sending a scrap or mail to her. On one weekend I found her online, but didn’t have courage to chat with her. The next day I found her online on the same time.

My mind stroke with a question “Is this her regular timing of using internet?”

To check this, next day I bunked my college and was online from morning. The time came, I was refreshing the page umpteenth time. A green light glowed near her name at 3.15 pm sharp. Wow! So this is the time she comes online. I was in an ecstatic mood as if she has accepted my love. I jumped, danced, shouted in excitement until my mom barked at me. I found her online timing and calculated with my college timing. If I bunk the last class I can see her online. Hence from the next day I bunked the last class, just to see her online.

Sara was puzzled at my behavior. I was not responding properly to her. We did not text like before. Good night and good morning text was harder for me to send. She called me many times but I kept the phone within two minutes every time. She was keep on annoying me with questions “why are you not talking with me?” like that etc. Next day I changed my place from her and sat alone. She was quizzed.

She came near me and asked can I talk with you for few minutes?

Yes you can, I said.

Did I commit any mistake? She asked.

No you didn’t, I answered.

Then why are you avoiding me?

Sorry. I’m not avoiding and why should I avoid?

You are not like before Jay. Something is wrong with you. I wonder what you have found in internet that you are online 24X7. Hope you are not addicted to anything in web. You get what I mean?

Yes I do get you. But nothing like that. I’m not addicted to anything and I’m just improving my knowledge(only god knows about whose knowledge I’m improving :p ).

You are doing that without any break huh? I know about you. You are up with something but you are not sharing it with me. Fine, share when you feel like. But I have another question why are you bunking all the last hours of the day? Tell if you wish to.

“I don’t like to attend the college itself” I said and turned around to avoid eye contact.

She was staring at me for few seconds and then she left to her desk.

Seeing Rika online became my duty. I thought she would itself ping me seeing me online. But that day didn’t come yet. So I was waiting for that day. And another thing I was eagerly waiting to see her picture. Without seeing her itself I had a strange feeling on her. I imagined her in my mind. Fair skin, cute big and bright eyes, rosy lips, cheeks with perfect flesh to make her face round, tiny nose, sharp and black eyebrows, fuzzy hair. I called my cousin and said there is a competition in my college. Come home you have to draw a drawing. He is a mad of drawing and he will do anything for drawing. I made him to draw and poured out all my imagination. He converted all my imagination to drawing and that sketch was like this.

P.S. If you visit a girls profile more than three times a day then I would say it is Love.

That sleepless night of confusion

I woke up at two in the morning. Something was not allowing me to sleep. I know the reason. Will she also be suffering the same feeling what I’m suffering. Or it is me who is like this. I took my mob to see any new texts but still Emma Watson was smiling. I again went to bed and tried to sleep. But it was of no use. I couldn’t sleep. I was staring the wall clock and counting each second. Finally I decided to call her but I gave up as it was mid night. But I decided to wait till 8 in the morning for her call, if not let me call.

It was just ten minutes I have woke up but it was like an hour. My mind couldn’t come up with any new idea to kill time other than using Orkut. So I switched on my pc and logged into orkut. I was shocked to see 82 of them online. I didn’t have any scraps to reply or any friend request to approve. So I started to check out the profiles of those peoples who have accepted my friend request recently.

Half an hour passed, nothing was interesting. I logged into my gmail and read that only unread mail.

Rika…….Khudhhe………. Approved your friend request…

The next moment I went into her orkut profile. She had Deepika Padukone’s picture as her profile picture. I checked out all her details. She was living in Banglore and studying in some women’s college. We had quite few things in common. She has mentioned in her profile that she likes Atif aslam’s music, Shahid’s acting, Karan johar’s movies etc. she just impressed me in five words “like songs with meaningful lyrics”. I have never heard anyone saying so. It was new to me and was damn impressed. Then came another thing. The most favorite song of this season is Teri ore from Singh is king just like mine.

Slowly my concentration moved to Rika from Sara. I checked my watch for the time and it showed 6am. Wtf? I have been stalking her profile for 3and half hours. But that went jiffy. Before seeing her profile 10minutes was like an hour and now 3and half hours was like 10 minutes. What the hell is it? What is going on with me? Am I not in love with Sara? Or was she right?

Numerous questions arose on my mind at that time. Then I started thinking what is between me and Sara? Why am I impressed by Rika’s profile? After an hour of thinking, I came to a conclusion that I and Sara are only friends. But I couldn’t think anything of Rika. Hope I might come to a conclusion after seeing her :p

My mom gave me a cup of coffee and then I called Sara.

“Loser” she said.

“No I’m not” I said.

“Then why did you call before the challenge gets over?”

“Actually I just came to know about our relation Sara. We are close friends and not lovers. You are right Sara. Sorry for what I did.”

“Never mind Jay it happens. Very happy that you didn’t confirm it as love. But I missed you badly.” She said.

“I missed very bad that made me to call Sara.”

“Don’t keep any tests like this here after Jay.”

“Sure”.

I have never hid anything from Sara. But should I say about Rika to her? Or shall I say after seeing her picture? If I say will she think bad about me? let me say after seeing Rika. I bid a bye and hunged the phone.

Then I carried on stalking her profile again. There was nothing much in her profile but I was keep on reading again and again what was there. And I liked that :-)

P.S. Love can fall in love with any one after all Love is blind :)