Witch who made me smile!

The guilt never stopped me. It was killing me from inside. I couldn’t concentrate on anything. I was feeling pity on Sara for my behaviour. I know that I shouldn’t betray her and I should be true at least from now. I was thinking how to overcome this issue. But that made me go sick. So I switched on the television to distract myself. As I was surfing the channels my eyes suddenly got struck with a scene from some movie. A girl in scooty with covered face. The very scene took me to the memories of Rika.  Black and white images of the moments I spent with her flashed on my mind like a slideshow. Very soon my lips curved and I smiled for the 1^st time in a week.

Rika was all clouded in my head. Her cute face, fuzzy hair, rosy lips and I started admiring her in my mind. I saw Rika’s photo in my mobile. She smiled at me.

The very next moment I logged in to my facebook profile and was checking out the news feed. Nothing was interesting because I was only interested about Rika. I opened her profile and was shocked to see her new profile picture. The anxiety in me opened her picture and started admiring her. She was much more beautiful than the previous picture. A close up picture compared to the previous one and it drove me little poetic.

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“Baby you’re just fit and fine,

I would like to make you mine.”

I had three options to do with that photo.

1. Like

2. Comment

3. Download.

Soon my hand went for the 3^rd option and I saved it in her folder. Then I changed my wallpaper of both my PC and mobile with the new picture. And of course I went for the first option as well and I was the 30^th to like the picture. Darn! I cursed myself for the late. I sent her a message stating “The new picture is just awesome. You could try modeling; I hope you would beat both KK’s”. And I came back to my job of admiring her. In few minutes a pop up sound came. It was a response from Rika and I soon saw she was online.

Oh thanks and I don’t have any idea like that. She sent. She is so precise in her chat and I liked it.

“You have bright chances. How are you?” I said to continue the chat.

“Fine and you?” she said.

“I’m good. When can we meet next?” I asked.

“Why should we meet and what is the purpose?” She said and was quite harsh.

“Just like that. As friends I don’t think we need a purpose to meet.”

“No need of meeting and that was just an accident. I don’t have any intention to meet any one. Especially boys.”

“Why? What sin did boys commit?” I asked

“I don’t believe in them. Everyone would end up in love.”

Man! She is Stubborn. Stubborn girls will have a good character and will not have any dealings with any others. They do their own work silently.

“Oh I see, hope you would have experienced it if I’m not wrong.” I said to clarify.

“That’s none of your business.”She snapped.

“Chill! How is your life going?”

“Aacha, I need to go out. Catch you later.”

“See you, take care.” I said.

She is a witch. She made me to forget my own issues and made me happy in few minutes.

Aftermath of GUILT

Guilt never stops bothering you until something is done with it. Thus I finally made up my mind to confess things about Rika to Sara. I know it’s going to be very hard for her but I thought not to delay anymore. I had no idea as to how to begin with .My mind was all clouded with the possible questions that Sara might throw as hearing this. I imagined the way she will react and the way she will expose her anger. The very thought frightened me. Betraying the trust of your beloved is the worst crime one can ever do. Standing as a criminal in front of her, I should accept all the punishments she gives me. I spent the whole night thinking of how and what has to be said. I did not know when I drifted off to sleep.

“Sara I know what I have for you is going to hurt but please make your heart strong enough. I know the love that you have for me is very pure and uncountable but sorry to say that I’m not as true as you are to me. This doesn’t mean that I don’t love you but I’m not able to show all my love to you. Though it was I who started about this love to you first, I realized we were only friends when we decided not to talk to each other for 3 days. After few months something I never expected happened. You proposed me. But you have to know what happened before that. I hope you remember those days when I was quite addicted to orkut. It had some reason behind. And it was RIKA. When I came across her account for the first time she was nothing to me. Just a stranger. But something made me to leave her a friend request which she had approved it after few days. Thus I started to stalk her .Soon her orkut page was book marked in my PC. What impressed me about her were the tastes which were very similar to mine. But what made me to fall for her was her pretty face which she had uploaded as her profile picture. She swept my heart by her gorgeous looks. Soon I became crazy on her. I gave my best to chat with her but nothing worked out. Suddenly one day she was not found in orkut. She disappeared. That was when I missed her. Too much. But I was glad to catch her again in facebook. And with the tour to banglore, it was my first attempt in search of her. My attempt did not go in vain. I saw her on the last day of the tour. We happened to meet in some café and I also got a chance to talk with her. But my presence did not make her happy. It just happened. All the while I tried my best to bring this to your knowledge but I couldn’t. Our last outing to the café was when I realized the harm that I was doing to you. That was an embarrassing situation for me. My guilt killed me. Thus I decided to let you know everything. I know this will hurt you badly but I’m helpless Sara. I’m really very sorry. I shouldn’t have done this to you. But do know that I love you as well. Hmm…. sounds insane right?”

As I was about to complete with what I wanted to say, I felt Sara’s palm hard on my left cheek. Too hard. She screamed, her face distorted with fury and pain. Tears rolled down on her cheeks. It never stopped. She abused me. All I could do was just stand like a shameless sheep closing my eyes. All of a sudden I heard nothing. It was stopped. No cry. No shouts. No abuse. When I opened my eyes I found Sara lying on the floor unconscious. She never opened her eyes. Everything went black.

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Chinta ta ta chita chita
Chinta ta taa..
Chinta ta ta chita chita
Chinta ta taa..

i couldn't hear anything than this song. i breathed heavily without knowing what to do.Only then,I got my breath when the phone was glowing.I rubbed my eyes and turned on the bedside lamp. It took quite a few minutes for me to realize that it was just a dream. The clock showed 5.45 am.   I looked for my phone and found it was Sara.

“Hello? “ I said.

“Good morning baby love you so much “was all I could hear. The very moment, the thought of confessing about Rika vanished.

Present Day..with Memories of Past :-(

Sara was back to normalcy. I realized that only my presence with her has made her better. I thought I should never make her suffer yet again. So as a first step for keeping her happy I decided to take her out. One fine morning I called her to say that we were going out by evening though I never knew where to take her. She was very happy hearing it. Around 6 at the evening I took my bike to pick up sara at her house. I enjoyed the few minutes ride and I was excited about taking her out as if it was the first time. I reached her house and I was welcomed by her mother. We had the formal talks and she left in asking me to wait for sara. After waiting for quite few minutes I saw someone walking down the stairs .A familiar face with gorgeous look was heading towards me. She was looking like an absolute stunner. For the first time sara made me to go freeze by her looks. Her face looked brighter than ever before. It clearly showed that she too was excited about our outing. We bade her mother a goodbye and took a leave from her house.

The ride with sara after long time gave me ecstasy. I felt proud to have a gorgeous looking girl by my side. We were clueless as to where to go. Thinking for a while sara said me to land at the café day. So we found ourselves in café day within few minutes. As soon as I stepped in, the memories of rika bounced into my head. The memories of the day when I was with rika in a similar café at banglore started haunting me again. All my excitement and ecstasy vanished by the very same moment. Sara on the other hand was enjoying every seconds. We took the corner table and sara sat very close to me .Her face pinkish. But my thought was full of rika. Though I felt very guilt, I was not able to stop thinking about her. I was even not able to concentrate on what the stunning gorgeous was saying. I did not even hear what she ordered for us though I know she would order nothing else than brownie. I was totally out of the world until I felt sara’s hand on mine. After gaining my conscious I tried not to think about rika, but I failed. So I decided at least to act as if I was enjoying the day with sara. I felt very sorry for sara who was showering me with all her love. Meanwhile our orders arrived and so I started to concentrate on it. Sara, who ordered brownie for her took a spoon of it to feed me. Seeing her doing so I cursed myself for what I’m now. Soon we finished our orders and hence we took a leave.

On the ride back to sara’s house the happiness and the feel which I had was no more. Soon we reached her house and I bade her goodnight. On return she gave a peck on my forehead. I was not able to stay there anymore. My guilt killed me inside. As I reached my house, my mom, who thought that I was enjoying the evening with sara, smiled at me. To show that all went well I gave her a return smile and rushed to my room before she showers me with her questions about the evening. Locking me behind the door I felt like shouting aloud. But I ended up by cursing me the whole night.