"missED her" Just by Chance

We didn’t text after that talk. 1^st day after 6 months I slept without texting her. I didn’t have any change in me. “I’m not in love” I said myself.

Next morning, I got up only by 9. Usually Sara would call and wake me by 7. She didn’t call me today. I took my phone to see have I received any texts. Emma Watson was smiling so nothing received. Every day when I get up it would show a red symbol insisting low battery. But today it was green and healthy.

I went to brush my teeth. My toilet have a mobile stand. We used to text while brushing, bathing and even sometimes during loo. But today it was just a waste to keep my mobile there. “She will call soon” I said myself. With a little hope I kept my mobile in stand and started brushing. I was keep on checking my mob to see any text received. Emma Watson was still smiling. Bathing also got over yet she didn’t text. “isn’t she loving me?” I questioned myself.

When we come after bath I would text her the colour of the dress she had to wear. But I didn’t do it today. When I fail to text she would ask me but she didn’t ask me today. A bit worried.

It was a holiday today due to Ugadi. As it was a Friday we got 3 continuous holidays. But for me it is going to be 3 dreadful days. I wish I had not said anything to her.

Every day during breakfast I will have my mob in my left hand texting her and eating in right hand. For the 1^st time in 6 months I had TV remote in my hand and was surfing the channels. Nothing interesting was going on. TV bored me so I went online to see my orkut profile. Nothing new. So I continued what I used to do with orkut everytime. Sending friend request to random people is my daily job in orkut. It’s because I always wanted to have more friends than Sara. Else I will prove myself dumbass again.

I was searching her online in orkut but she was not online either. What the hell is she doing? I asked myself. I didn’t have any idea what she was doing. She was never been like this before. Even when we fight she would apologize me if it was my fault. Even for an hour she would not be without texting me but now it would be 5hrs she would have got up. Yet she is not texting. So stubborn.

I went into my gmail account. This was the second time I’m accessing my mail account. 1^st time was for activating my orkut account. When I logged in I was shocked to see my inbox. It showed 4873 mails unread. I didn’t have any work, so to kill time I started reading all those mails. Most of the mails were from orkut about approvals of friend request, scraps and few forwards. At noon I finished reading all mails making my inbox to 0.

“I miss you” I typed in my mobile but erased. She should text 1^st not me I said myself and kept my mob aside.

When I was about to log out I received a mail. I thought it was from Sara but it was same orkut mail.

Rika…….Khudhhe…. approved your friend request. It said.

I logged out.

I couldn’t pass the time without texting her. All is she for me. But now from morning I’m missing her so much. No entertainment nothing without her. I couldn’t control myself talking to her. But I said myself “she will call tomorrow, For now sleep today”.

From morning I’m missing you so much. I couldn’t pass the time without you. All I’m doing to pass the time is counting every seconds. Sorry I miss you. I typed but didn’t send her rather stored in my drafts.

I went to bed missing her.

I wish she would call tomorrow.

P.S. don’t take any break like this during holidays, you would find very difficult to pass time. If it’s on a regular working day time would pass easily.

Oh it's love???

So you are trying to say that I’m in love, right Jay?

Yes you’re Sara.

Oh it's love?

SARA says,

You say whatever we do is done only by lovers and not by friends?

The reason why you are thinking like a crap is I’m the only girl whom you talk and whom you have talked. So you think our friendship as love. All close friends does what we do Jay. And I agree lovers also do these things but I don’t have any feelings like love on you. I’m just being friendly to you and I don’t have any love on you for sure but yes I do care for you and I like you. And these does not mean love jay. It is friendship, do understand.

What happened to your character? NO EXPECTATIONS and NO DISAPPOINTMENTS. Now you have started expecting something. Your character made me very close to you and where did that character went? Why is that and what happened suddenly?

You know why I give more preference is when I’m with you I can do whatever I wish to do. If I’m with my parents they might say me not to do something, if it’s with friends something makes me shy and so I take you where ever I want to go. You are not selecting the dress or nail polish of your choice. I take few on my taste and you are selecting from that. I prefer you every time because you know me very well than anyone in this world.

From the day starts I’m somehow with you like texting or call or meeting is because girls don’t have any other work to do at home. And you are such a friend that I can share everything with you and a trustworthy. I know you are not like other boys to say everything to other friends whatever you text, talk with me. You know well that I’m not kinda reserved type like you. I need someone to share everything and you were good to me and hence I’m sharing it and it is not because of love.

And say me if you’re in love and don’t try to prove I’m in love. I know I’m not in love Jay.

JAY says,

No Sara it is love. It is you who is deep in love. You do everything and not me. That’s why I said all this. Fine I guess you will know your love if we don’t talk for 3 days as many story says distance proves love. Let’s see who misses much and who talks first. Only thing we should be honest. If I miss much I would confess and you do the same if you do.

So 3 days no text, no call, no meeting, no talking . Are you ready Sara?

If this is the only way to prove , Yes I’m ready to prove my friendship Jay.

3 days start from now Sara.

See you and take care.

P.S. Girls never accept anything easily, they always reason out to prove they are right :p

Friendship or LOVE???

Don't say we are just friends Sara.

“We are friends Jay” she said raising her right eye brow.

I raised my voice for the first time in my life.

You didn't do anything for us, being just friends Sara.

All you did was to take our relationship beyond friends.

Why are you always with me 24X7? Is it because we are friends? if you think so you are fooling yourself. It is because you are in love. With me.

Right from the time of your day starts you are thinking only about me. You Text me as soon as you get up. We chat even at the time we brush, bath, breakfast, lunch etc. if any new place like mall or shops opened you will ask me to take you and not your friends or parents. You want your shopping to be done only with me. You want me to choose the colour of the nail polish you are going to get, you want me to select the dresses you buy, you want me to suggest you what dress you should wear everyday.

You have even stopped liking the colours which I don't like but you like. You have stopped watching your favorite daily soaps only because i don't like that. You can't be without texting or talking with me even for an hour. You call me even if you go for a small walk to the general stores or somewhere like that. It is me you want to be around all the time.

You don't keep any secrets with me rather you share everything right from the boys whom your friends ogle to your maid's affair. You let me to know each and every movement of yours . Even your close friends call me and ask what you do when you don't turn up picking their call.

You don't do anything without asking me. You wanted both of us to use twin mobile. It is you who sits near me and talk all the time in college. It is you who cares of me all the time. It is you who makes me smile all the time. It is you who makes me strong when I'm low.

Do you do all these because we are just friends???

No. Definitely  not. You do everything because you are in love with me. You keep on saying me as your friend and that is why you don't feel the love you have for me.  Just sit alone and think why do you do all this? Is it because we are just friends? or is it love? Do all the friends do what we do? Or do lovers do what we do?

I can see your immense love on your eyes when I look at it.

Don’t be a fool thinking it is friendship.

"It is love sara".

P.S.-If you exchange more than 30 messages with girl/boy everyday then I would say it is love.

Are we just friends???

It was one fine day I was sitting all alone at home, just like every day. No one was there to hang out with. It was because I was a dumbass in school days and made very few friends and those friends have just a formal talk with me. I didn’t have any interest in talking with them rather. I did not want this to last even in college but fate didn’t leave me.

The people in this world now just want to be in love with someone. So they don’t care to speak with same sex, but to opposite (I did neither of those). The girls mind have become like ‘ If a boy talks with a girl then she would think he loves her’. But boys decide she is in love even If she smiles at him .What a world is this???

Even I belong to the same world, so how will I be? I was also thinking about girls all the time. Now, the important thing, I was very weak talking to girls. I have never spoken to girls before like others do, other than answering their questions in schools. Even during that time, my full body will be shivering with lot of sweat, like I just came from a marathon race. And I feel guilt and curse God for that.

It all happened to end when my crush came into my life. I can’t call her a crush though she didn’t attract me at first sight. But she impressed, swept my feet with her sweet talks. Her name was the second girl’s name my mobile had, first was my mum’s name.

She was the one who came and spoke with me on the 8^th day of my college, and became my companion during my walk from home to college and vice versa instantly. She was the one to come first to see me when I was sick, she was the one whom I was always in call with talking, talking, talking.

Just like that I became very close to her knowing each and every movement of her’s, I became the first one to be shared about the stuffs she had to share, I became the first one to be called for shopping, I became the first one to be wished good morning and last to be wished good night.

I didn’t have to work much to make her fall for me like every hero’s in the movie does. But she played all those roles rather.

I was flattered with those talks. She made me to feel something different in me. I was a nerd when I joined the college and she turned me to a modern guy as soon as she came to my life. She had changed everything in me. Right from the way I eat, I speak, I walk etc.

I was on cloud nine when she said ”I like you”.

But that didn’t last for few more minutes extra. She left me depressed, worried and all other words that suit the situation just by saying,

“We are just friends, Jay”.