In Search of her (part 1)

That day went mugging up the details in facebook. A few items were in addition but still I couldn’t find where she lives exactly. I kept stalking her profile and she had uploaded the same photo which she had in orkut. I wrote ”Thanks” in her wall and came offline.

Next day when I reached college there was an invitation put up on the notice board. “National level Cultural event at Reva Institute, Banglore.” As soon as my eyes found Banglore I know I would be there. I contacted the person in-charge for the event and registered myself. Then I got permission from the college. Till then I didn’t open my mouth about this to Sara or to my parents. Only fear I had was, if I say her I’m going to Banglore, Sara might be adamant to come with me. So I thought of saying some story to her and leave. If she comes the total drama would be cancelled.

I went to the class and sat next to Sara. I didn’t know how to initiate about my trip to her and I should lie to her without any flaws. I started “There is a house warming function of my relative at Banglore this Saturday. As mom and dad have some works on that day, they have asked me to attend the function. So I’m going leaving there on Thursday and I would return back on Sunday.” She looked deep into my eyes and as I finished, I turned around. “You really have to go there? Your eyes say you are not interested in going.” She said and I got hold of that to say some peppy dialogues. “Sara I really have no interest to go there leaving you and I won’t be able to take you also as it is my close relative’s function. I don’t know how I’m going to spend these three days without you. I won’t be able to text or call you even due to the roaming. I’m very worried.” She took my hand and said “Don’t worry Jay, you would be able to adjust. As your parents have works they have asked you to go. You will be safe and enjoy the trip. Call me when you are free I won’t mind if you don’t call too” as she finished she landed a kiss in my cheek. “Thanks Sara” I said.

As I returned home I said my mom the truth. “Mom I’m going to participate in some events that is going to be held at Reva institute banglore and I have said Sara that I’m leaving to some relatives house warming function to avoid her company. So you also maintain the same story to her.”

Mom didn’t regret and didn’t ask anything too. She came and helped me in packing my stuffs and gave money for the trip. I touched my parent’s feet and went to the bus stand to board the bus. Sara dropped me in the bus stand and I boarded the bus. When the bus started I bid her a bye and she had tears in her eyes and I had excitement in my eyes.

I got down in banglore at 5, early morning. It was very cold that my teeth started to tremble in cold and my hands froze. I didn’t take any sweat shirt or gloves with me. I had to get a room first. Some auto drivers in the area came and asked me where I have to go. I said them I need to go to a lodge near majestic and got into the auto. I entered the room, fell on the bed and covered myself with the blanket and slept for few minutes.

I woke up at eight and got fresh and left the room. On my way, I had my breakfast and went to Reva institute at hebbla. I have to plan the three days of my trip well. This trip is completely dedicated to search Rika. I have hoped that she may come to this event. If she fails I would have to go to her college and search her. I went inside the college and took a seat in the auditorium. The event started with the speech by some person, followed by the chief guest. I was not interested to listen to that and I was concerned in searching her, so I looked around the audience. As the crowd was huge I could not recognize anyone’s face properly. I was sitting in the back row and the stage was not visible properly so I managed to get a seat in one of the front rows and got settled myself. Everyone had come with gangs and only I have come alone. It was like a festival and every students were excited about it. Few minutes later the dance competition started and every audience shouted till their throat tore.

I looked at each girls coming in the stage and I prayed god that Rika should come to this event. Only then I remembered that she is now my friend in facebook. I took my mobile, logged into the facebook and typed a message to her. “Hey Rika I’m here in banglore for National level Cultural event at Reva institute. Is there any chance that you may come to this event?”

I started my searching again. No girl in the stage impressed me and none could stand near Rika too, She is so beautiful. Boredom started to rise and I came out of the auditorium to explore the college. I walked to every corner of the college, passed every class, entered cafeteria and roamed in the playground also. It was empty everywhere. Everyone was present in the auditorium. As I couldn’t find her I went to the auditorium and started watching the events. Some danced well, some sang well and few persons froze the audiences by doing mimicry like celebraties.

I logged in at 3 noon, Rika’s usual timing for online. She was not online but she had left a reply an hour ago. “Welcome to banglore! And I don’t have any interest in these events so I’m not attending it. Have fun bye.”

“I will be staying here for 2 more days and if you attend the events do inform me. I would like to meet you” I replied.

Love, Rain there is a relation!!!

I have hid something from you people. The most cherished moments in my life had associated with rain. It was raining when sara spoke to me for the very first time. It rained when I took her in my bike for the first time. I cannot forget the first hug of sara, it was due to a huge thunder on one breezy evening. In fact it was the first time she touched me, no, a girl touched me. Rain makes a special feeling on every people. I always like to get drenched in rain.

These memories hit my mind due to the sudden change in the weather. The dark clouds were arriving near me and cold breeze were blowing on me. The city became calmer than ever. All peoples were in hurry to reach their home back before it rains. But I was standing in my balcony and watching the scenery. The light condition, temperature, dusty wind everything was perfect, perfect for a romantic song.

I stepped out to keep my bike in garage. Suddenly my phone rang, no surprise it was sara.

Yeah sara tel me! I said.

“Hurry to my house immediately  ” she said and hung the phone.

I was confused why she is calling me now, why in a hurry? Her voice had strong nervousness may be she might be in need of my help or is she playing prank? But her voice was serious and I thought something was wrong. I started my bike and sped to her house ignoring what I was wearing. I was in shorts and a transparent tee that my bare chest was almost visible. All of a sudden my bike ran out of petrol and stopped in mid-way. There is no petrol bulk near, only place I could land up is sara’s house. It is just a kilometer away. I pushed my bike and started running towards her house. I called her once but there was no response and that increased my anxiety. I reached her house and parked my bike and ringed the calling bell. There was no response. All I could hear was the bell sound from the house. I banged the door and it slid away. Damn the house is open. The footwear stand had fell down and all footwear was strewn. I sensed something is wrong. Suddenly I thought a thief must have sneaked into her house and she must be hiding inside. I gathered my courage and kept slow and silent steps. I went into kitchen no one was there, then to a room and found no one. Adrenaline secreted more and hence I was in full of sweat. I went near the store room and was about to open the door, sara shouted “Jay”.

“Nothing happened to you sara? What happened ? Why did you ask me to come in hurry?” I wept.

“Hey jay what is wrong with you and why are you so tensed and anxious? Come sit here she made me to sit on a couch.”

“What the fuck is wrong here? And why did you call me to come here so soon? I shouted and avert.”

“Oh baby I was feeling lonely here and thought of going for shopping. As I was dressing up I couldn’t talk properly .I was holding some cloths in my teeth and phone fell down in between. Sorry jay” she said.

“My anger aroused but it was not her mistake and I couldn’t show it to her. I asked her to get some water and calmed myself. I drank water and returned the glass to her.” She giggled.

“Why are you giggling now? “

“Are you going to come with me to mall with this sleazy dress? Look at the dress, you are showing your body as if you have a six pack abs. “

“Ufff, the things were different to me sara. Your voice sounded nervous and the sudden hung took me to think something else. I thought something was wrong and I rushed immediately to your house. When I entered most of the things were strewn and I thought some thief must have sneaked in and I was getting ready for an action. But you idiot played a big prank on me. Only because of this my clothes became dirty and the sweat made my shirt to stuck my body.”

She burst out in laugh hearing this. She sat on the floor and didn’t stop laughing. She laughed seeing me continuously and my temper touched its peak.

Will you just stop laughing now? I screamed.

She stopped and asked me like a child ”will you take me to mall now baby?”

“It is going to rain so I will leave home and we can go tomorrow.”

“No I want to go, Now.”

“Look at my outfit, I can’t make to mall with this. If I go back home it would surely be late. So understand lets go tomorrow sara.”

“Come out with this outfit, only then no one will see my lover” she said and made me to smile.

We locked the house and as my bike was out of petrol we took her scooter. I asked her to ride and I sat in pillion. As I sat I noticed her wearing the dress which we bought last week. It was fit on her showing every kink of her body. When my eyes came through the hip, I just couldn’t control my hands to touch them. I resisted a lot and kept my hand on the pillion handle. None was there in mall other than the shopkeepers.

We shopped for an hour and it was raining when we came out of the shop. Sara asked me to ride. I said we can go home after the rain stops but she shoved me to ride. 

It was raining heavily that the vehicles coming in opposite direction was not visible. I managed with their headlight and rid slowly. On the other side the wind was blowing strongly and jostled us. Unknowingly I went through a speed breaker and the tyre wobbled but I managed with my legs. At the same time sara hugged me from back when it wobbled and all my anger flew away. Rain changed my mood first, now she is changing. Already I’m in damn control but her hug makes me to think beyond.

We reached her house and sneaked in. She gave me a towel to dry. I stood near the balcony and was watching the rain. By the time she prepared soup and changed her dress. She came near me and gave me the soup. We sat in the lawn and she dried my hair with the towel. Every movement of her wanted me to cross the limits. Soup warmth the body but not my heart. I kept starring at her. She was wearing a tee and skirt.

Our eyes were speaking now. I slowly went near her and she moved away. I held her hands and sat touching each other. My face touched her wet hairs, slowly moved up. A hot air from her nose hit my face. I held her face in my left hand and saw her lips were trembling. I went closer and made her lips wet. She shoved me suddenly and sat in the opposite chair. 

“Jay you should leave now” she said.

“It is raining sara and you are alone. How could I leave you like this?” I winked.

“I can manage myself, you go home. Here take my scooter” she said and threw the keys.

As soon as I returned back home I had a shower and sat on my computer to check out my mail. I had a friend request in facebook. I clicked on the tab, Rika. Confirm or ignore. I suddenly clicked on the confirm tab and stood astounding. Now I remembered why it rained.

P.S. Any situation could be related to anything.

Sad to Happy

I lost myself after she removed me. A feel of guilt ran through my heart for viewing her profile so manytimes. The other side that I had a chat with her didn’t let me to ecstasy. Sadness was all I was in. I waited for her in online the rest of the day thinking that she may come online, but sooner her account was nowhere in orkut. I refreshed the page several times, searched with her name, email id but I gained   nothing. Her account was deactivated and my eyes had tears. I was not so-emotional person but  something made me to cry, may be my love towards her.

 I took my i-pod and started to listen the music. My ears didn’t enjoy the music but it listened to the  lyrics carefully. That was the time I realized our mood rules our listening. When we are happy, we enjoy the music in the song and when we are sad, we listen to the lyrics of the song. The songs made my eyes  to shed more tears so I threw it.

 On the other hand Sara was calling me continuously and I was ignoring her every time. I didnt know why I suddenly lost interest in talking with her. I get frustrated whenever I see her name in my mobile display. Something was terribly wrong with me.

 Few minutes later I went online found no updates. So I logged into my mail id and a shiver ran throw my spine. Rika was online! I suddenly pinged her a “hi”. Few seconds later I got the same hi back.

“ How are you Rika? Good to see that you use your email.” I sent.

 “It was just yesterday we had a chat and again you are asking how I am, and of course an email id is essential for a college student.” She replied.

Her reply was just like a slap hit on cheek. She replies as if she doesn’t have any interest. So I thought of getting into some topic. Suddenly my fingers typed ”It is my habit to ask about anyone’s wellbeing  whenever I talk to them. I will be coming to banglore next weekend.”

 “Ok. What makes you to bring here?” she asked

 I tried to con with something but nothing struck my mind. The time passed. She sent “hello”. “Sorry had small work and just returned back. Where were we?” I answered.

 “Check the above conversation.” she said

 “A national level cultural event is going start at Acharya institute, and I’m participating in some events” I said by gathering this information from some website in google.

 Oh ok have fun! She replied.

I thought for few minutes and asked her ”what have you thought about creating a facebook profile?”

 “Still I’m thinking about it and why are you keen on it?”

 “I’m not keen I just asked whether you have created or not. If you had created thought of sending you a   friend request.”

“Only because of this I deactivated my orkut profile. All insane people send me request and most of time goes in declining their request.”

 “Hope those are strangers and I’m not in that list ;-)”

You are a semi stranger. Don’t worry I will send you a request if I create one. Got to go, bye.  She said and went offline.

My heart felt light after chatting with her and all my worries flew away. So I got mail account to chat   with her. I jumped, danced. I didn’t know how to celebrate it. I called Sara and informed her that I’m on  my way to her house. I went to her house and sneaked into her room. She was in her night suit sitting in bed with a sad expression in her face.

 I reduced my excitement a little and said “Sara am sorry for whatever I did. I was not in a good mood.”

 She didn’t answer. I sat near her, kept her head on my thigh and whispered in her ears “I can get angry  only on the person whom I love more.” Still there was no reaction.”Darling I know I was harsh on you but head ache was horrible and any one on my situation would have done the same. If you have forgiven me give me a kiss on lips else if you are still angry give me a kiss on cheek.”

She smiled and sat up face to face. She gave a kissed me on my cheek and saw me. I made my face like a small baby who is about to cry and that gained me a kiss. “Baby I’m not angry on you” she said and made my lips wet. She looked sexy in the night suit and I complimented her. she said she would dress   up and asked me to wait in the lawn. I waited for few minutes and she said she needs to do shopping. We went to the nearby mall and selected two tops and a pair of legins. As it was my selection we returned home soon and we danced for the music in her room. I could just celebrate like this.

P.S. When you have options priority comes ;-)

I wish we would be FRIENDS again

When I get up in the morning Rika was going through my mind. My face was frowned and I look into everything keen, as if I am in a serious thinking. I didn’t wish Sara a good morning even and didn’t attend her calls. I need to know the reason why Rika took me from her friend list. I decided to avail leave today to college as I have planned something to do. I called Sara.

“Hey my head ache is bad and I’m not coming to college today.” I lied.

“Still you have head ache from last night? Did you sleep last nit and did u take any medicine?” she asked.

“No I did not take medicine yet and will have one now. This head ache didn’t allow me to sleep and I’m very tired call you later. Love you Sara.”

“Love you, take care.” She hung the phone.

I didn’t understand why I have such feelings on both? Do I love both? Or is it something like infatuation? Whom do I need in life? Either Sara or Rika? As far as now, both are important to me. I took my chair and kept it under the ceiling fan, sat, closed my eyes resting the nape above the chair and thinking about Sara and Rika. In a few minutes I felt asleep. Phew! A not-so-tight-slap on my left cheek made my face to turn right. My body flushed hot, I arose in anger and found it was Sara. Why the hell did you slap me? I yell at her.

Don’t I have a right to slap at you? She shouted.

I have a bad head ache and I don’t want to tiff or quell with you. Will you please allow me to rest? I said calmly.

I don’t want to go to college without you and I’m going to stay right here and take care of you.

No I don’t want anyone to be near and attend college now. Please stop these filmy dialogues, it’s disgusting.

You are sick and you talk sick. She said and slammed the door.

Then there was Rika. Hope I don’t love her, of course, but I was certainly infatuated with her. Men get infatuated with girls, I argued to myself, in spite of being genuinely in love with their lovers. It happens every day of the week; it has always happened, and it will always happen. You pass through this life but once, I said to myself, and you would be a mug to miss such an opportunity. I want to love Rika but I don’t know she is interested or not. She took me out from her friend list now, so I don’t know I can still talk to her or not. If she is interested I will surely love. Of course it isn’t strictly playing the game with Sara, but men are doing that kind of thing every day, so why shouldn’t I? What the eye doesn’t see, the heart doesn’t grieve about. So long as Sara doesn’t find out, and I’ll take damned good care she doesn’t find out. I really believed what I was telling myself. So long as Sara didn’t find out, all would be well. Go ahead, I thought don’t take any chances, but don’t miss this opportunity. In my present mood, it now seemed ridiculous not to have told her about Rika at first itself, and it would be absurd to say about Rika later, when I get into a point of selecting one. I didn’t want to hurt Sara by saying it now but I should say it later without hurting her. The only good thing I have done is that I have already told her that I can’t promise her for a long term relationship.

I slept and got up at 2pm. Refreshed myself, ate lunch and sat in my pc. I surfed the net until it is 3. Then I got ready to chat with Rika as this is her usual timing. I hope she comes today. A few minutes later, I received a scrap from Rika.

It said ”Rika: sorry I don’t think I know you and your face doesn’t seem to be familiar. I wonder how I accepted you. I don’t wish to talk to any stranger in orkut and I’m going to deactivate this account now. It is just annoying me.”

Oh my goodness she has replied me. She never replied any strangers but she has replied me now. So this is something positive. I typed a reply “I know you don’t know me and I don’t know you either. But we have met a couple of times in Leo club. Just we have not spoken to each other. As we both were in same club I thought of talking to you in this site. Nothing else than that. Is there any other reason for ruling me out of your friend list? And I wish, we would be friends if you don’t have any problem” I hit reply and waited for her reply. Thank god I was able to recall this information she had provided in her profile. Hope I managed the situation well. Let’s see from her reply.

In a few minutes I got a reply from her ”Oh nice to know that you remember these but sorry I don’t remember any. I hope we won’t be able to continue our friendship as I’m going to deactivate my orkut account. If I again join I would surely say you. See you.”

“Facebook is a new emerging site in which you can be without any troubles if you set your privacy according to your wish. And our club needs everyone to have an e-mail id and account in a social network. Hope you would join in Facebook, send me friend request and like our club. See you.”

“Yeah I am thinking of creating a profile there but yet I have not decided. If I join I will send you request.

Got to go catch you later. See you.”  She replied.

I wish we would be friends again. I felt a slight relief after sending few scraps and I would be serene if she sends me request in Facebook. I hope for the best to happen. I called Sara and apologized for that yell and she forgave instantly because of headache.

A day to Remember

As we both have proposed each other, our friendship turned into love. First few days, after I proposed there were no change in our love life. We both were leading the same life we led as we were friends. I didn’t find any change. She started to look deep into my eyes when we talk, when I smile, when I cracked a joke, when we were silent and I was uncomfortable with that. I don’t understand what she sees in my eyes for so long time.

The next day, we went to college as usual and took our seats. When the class were on, she adjusted herself and came little closer to me and I started watching her keenly from the one corner of my eyes. Her hand movements were sluggish with tremble, trying to take something but it looked like a thief robbing something. Suddenly my brain said “She didn’t get your mobile yet hope she is trying to take”. So I took my mob from my side and kept it beneath the desk where we keep our books. Her hands didn’t reach to mobile after I kept. She is trying something and I decided to watch it calmly. Her legs were stumbling though she was sitting. She took her hand, moved it slowly, took a glimpse around the class and reached my hand. A shiver ran through my spine as soon as she touched my hand. She has pinched, slapped, knocked my head before but she never held my hand. I didn’t give a grip till now. I turned myself, looked her and starred raising one eye brow. Her eyes were small than usual with a little fear in it and it raised after I raised my eyebrow. My lips curved as soon as I saw her, that reduced her fear and I gripped her hand. It is a good feeling to hold your loved ones hand, it assures you something on every situation.

During break I asked her “why did you struggle too much to hold my hands?”

What you watched it? How? Why didn’t you held it on my first attempt itself? You didn’t like to hold my hands right? And your stare gave me guilt idiot” she questioned.

“I started watching you as soon as you adjusted yourself and admired all your nuance movements” I chuckled.

I was feeling egregious that you behave defiance to me and shard my heart.

I just admired how you struggle and triumphant in my work. Why are you doing it like a venture? Be casual with me, I will not mind I said and returned back to our class. Our class was boring and I was least interested in listening to it. I had sara’s right hand in my left hand and watching it closely. The hand was pink in colour reflecting her blood level in her body. I held her hand in my left hand and made straight lines in her palm with my index finger. In ticklish she made crumble movements and I liked the new entertainment. As we were in the last bench we were not noticed by other classmates but many assumed our friendship as love from the first. So they won’t mind us if they see us holding hands. She cleared her throat and croaked “shall we go for a movie now?”

Movie is not a bad idea but we don’t have a show now rather we can go to our house and watch some movie if you are comfortable with it. “OK” she said and we left college after lunch. At home we have a mini theater to watch movies. A big screen with digital surround speaker system in front of a couch and a table. 

Mom said she is leaving out for shopping. We bid her bye, baked a bucket of popcorn and went to the theater room. She held out the DVD’s pouch and surfing which movie to play. She held out a movie named “Ring”. I have not watched the movie and she said has not too. So we played the movie and sat on couch. 

This time little closer that our triceps touched. It was a ghost movie and she was frightened from the first scene. I held her in my arms, she lay on my shoulder and in few minutes she huddled me.

Most of the scenes were frightening and each scene made us tighter. We watched the movie hugging each other. I kissed her forehead after movie ended and she was dazed after the kiss. I have the sequel of the movie shall we watch? I winked.

Enough for today. Later. She said.

One and half hour hug was awesome that I wanting more and more, said stressing more longer.

“I also need it but it’s time for your mom to return and we can enjoy another day” she made a cute wink.

She left home and we started talking on phone. When I am around her I forget myself and the time goes jiffy. After she left home an hour was like a day. As she had guests at home she hung the phone and to kill time I went online. Rika’s profile opened as it was my home page and she looked stunning. I glanced her entire profile once and I was shocked seeing a tab “Add friend”. Darn she removed me from her friend list. I sent her a friend request again and for the first time I built courage and sent a scrap stating “hi rika unknowingly I removed you from my friend list, have sent you one.” Thought it would be pleasing. I couldn’t see her picture in her profile due to her privacy settings.

My brain started thinking why did she remove me from her friend list? In the updates there was an application named “check who visits your profile?” and many had used it. I tried and it showed top three users who visits our profile and sara topped it. Damn is it real or hoax? Did rika also try it? Only because of this she removed me from her friend list?

Zillion questions arose similar to those questions and I stalked her profile as before and forgot totally about sara until she called me. I excused myself from her saying that I have head ache so I’m going to sleep and hung the phone.

I lay on bed thinking the reason of the removal and slept thinking about rika.

P.S. Being with your lover is elegant but playing with your lover is impeccable. 

Love: Select in a better way!

We spoke as if nothing has happened with us in college. I reached my home after college and Sara said she will not disturb me until I say her my answer. I took a blank sheet and wrote Sara on left and Rika on right. I separated the sheet half for both of them. I wrote intimacy in Sara and stranger in Rika. So I started checking with both of their pros and cons.

To see with Sara, As you know, we were very good friends and we are. She knows each and everything of mine and has been standing in every situation of my life from my college days. I move with her easily and am very comfortable with her. She trusts me more than her parents, she believes me whatever I say and she obeys my words. But for these reasons I can’t take advantage but yet it would be a thrill to take advantage.

Whereas with Rika, I first have to boast myself to chat with her, then she has to be interesting rather than snappish. I should then make her close with me and that’s a tough job as I don’t know how to do it, then we should exchange our numbers to make our friendship one step ahead, have to know each other well and then, only if at all she likes me and if she falls for me, my love for her would be cherished else it would be ditched.

Now to look at their character Sara is sweet, caring, open hearted, elegant, quick witted, trustworthy. My parents like her though, so if I say I need to marry her I think they won’t have any objections. She is pleasingly beautiful, quite fit with broad shoulders, I mean wide not thick, fair, few inches shorter than me, tiny eyes, small ears and pinky lips.

Rika is stuttering gorgeous, with perfect structure, fair and body maintenance like bollywood actresses. In her astounding beauty she would leave everyone inarticulate and I was flattered seeing her picture and made it wallpaper. No one can beat her in beauty. She has an ability to replace Katrina kaif and kareena kapoor over night if she goes into modeling. But I don’t know anything about her character. Only thing I know is she doesn’t speak with strangers, and has social network profile to keep in contact with her friends and relatives.

So I can’t assure that Rika would fall for me or I may dislike her after knowing her well. At the same time I love Sara too and I miss her every now and then. Rika beats Sara in beauty but no one can understand me like Sara. So I can’t deny her proposal just like that. Let the Rika stuffs be away from Sara. If I and Rika falls in love let me deal it with Sara then. Until then let my routine stalking continue and boost myself to speak to her.

I went to Sara’s house. She was astonished to see me. We went to terrace as I asked to talk to her in private. Her eyes were eager to know my decision and it showed in her face. I started saying what I have in my mind. “Sara as You know you’re my first female and best friend of mine. We know each other well and I didn’t know that you would propose me. I never expected your friendship would turn into love. You always call me a dumbass and u used to chuckle me saying that no girl would marry a dumbass like me. But now you have proposed this dumbass and I have thought well and came to decision. Keep your heart strong to hear this and I promise it would not affect our relationship. We can be as before or even better. Let me come to the point directly. Yes Sara I’m in love with you but I don’t believe in long term relationship. We can love but I can’t promise you that I will marry you and all other filmy stuffs. I have thought well and saying it. But if I need this relationship for long term we can if you don’t have objection. But for now I can’t promise you for a long term. Let us have it for short term and if none of the circumstances changes our love we can get into a long term relationship. And no offence if it hurts you.” As soon as I ended she was in tears.

"It is like you need all pleasures now but not joy” said Sara. “And I mean in all ways. I don’t understand why you said so and from when you thought like this. And I doubt it is the same jay I’m talking to. You made me to feel my love and now you say that you love me but you will not live with me. This is ridiculous. I guess you need to think again. Not needed. Let me make you to change your mind with my love because every love should do some changes in them.”

P.S. We cannot assure that love can happen only once.

She poured her heart out!

The ecstasy was still on and that made me quite witty in the class and got me more friends ( acquaintance would be appropriate). I was still sitting near Sara and we were as before “Close friends”. We were back chatting 24X7 as before but at the same time I didn’t stop stalking Rika. This became my routine work everyday. I always wanted to say about rika to Sara but I didnot get courage to say her and I don’t know the reason too. May be I don’t know how she will take it.

As usual our college went jiffy. I had my mobile every last hour of the college, Sara would have the rest of the day playing game in it and you know why I have it on the last hour :p . But now I have become normal and moving with Sara as before made her to be at her home rather than mine.

When the life was moving like this, one morning, Sara woke me and said she needs to talk to me. I compelled her to say it but she refused and said she will say it today. As usual we were going to college by walk. She didn’t utter a word after we stepped out of my house. I kept on pestering her, what she wanted to say but I couldn’t make her to say anything than “I will say you soon”. My head was full of too many questions and was anxious of knowing What it was. An hour passed, She didn’t get my mobile yet. I could sense her nervousness, it was too high and that created a small fear on one corner of my heart. Her fingers were dancing in the desk, a blush from the morning made her pink, her eyes were looking at me from one corner, legs were shaking in nervousness and she was much excited.

Can I know the reason of your excitement? I started.

Of course, for that we have to bunk this class. She said.

I’m comfortable here, you can say it right now.

The ambience is awkward, I need to go somewhere. Why don’t we go to the park? She asked.

If I get to know only if we go to park, then let us go.

It was morning break for brunch, We left our class and started to park. During brunch our college park would be filled with lovers. All couples would occupy the seats and would be romancing. Sometimes it would be good to see but many a times it will be awkward.

Whenever we walk together, our sides would touch. But today, from morning, she maintained a gap.

By the time we reached the park was full. I asked her What was the matter? She asked me to wait till every one moves to class. As soon as the break bell rang, everyone left the park empty with me and Sara alone. She was playing here legs with sand making semi circles with her thumb. 

Are you comfortable with this ambience or we should change our place? I questioned.


No we can be here. She said and took a seat under a big tree which gave a good shadow on the sunny day. It was cooler here rather than the bench under a fan in our classroom. I sat in a next bench from her’s.

She looked here and there. I was watching her movements and  waiting her to start. But she did not seem to start. Why the hell are we here? I shouted.

Jay, I have to talk to you.

That is why we are here. I said hoarsely.

I have not slept for past two days.

What happened? Are you alright? Should we consult a doctor? I asked.

She adjusted herself to the hedge of the bench and said “Let me complete, don’t interrupt”

Jay I’m happy that we are back as before. When you stayed silent without talking to me it hurt me badly. I have been crying for hours without any reason. I don’t want to spoil the situation by saying all my sorrows now and it was not this I wanted to say you. I said it just to let you know. The most toughest days I spent was those two days of our challenge. I had my mobile in my hand throughout the day and was unlocking  it every now and then to check for your texts. I couldn’t concentrate anything on those two days. I didn’t sleep but cried all night for accepting the challenge. That really hurt me a lot and I never wanted any of my day to be like that. If you have not put a challenge then we would not have faced all this. (Each and every sentence from her mouth made infinite expressions in my face thinking what she is talking about exactly). But I thank you for that challenge. Actually your challenge made my brain to think well about our relationship, but my heart did not want to lose the challenge as you know I don’t like to lose in anything. At the same time after our challenge you changed yourself and I know the reason too. (I was stunned to hear this from her, is she speaking about Rika? How did she know?) You were right Jay we are too intimate. But you need not prove it by keeping me away from you. I couldn’t bare the pain when you left me for these days. You have already proved What we are upto. During our challenge I typed few texts to you but I didn’t send you and its in my drafts still. By now I have spent all joyful moments, sad moments and hurtful moments with you and by you. I thought well and decided that I need you to glorify my life and only you can make it because I have been happy with you than I was with my parents. I need you to be in my life forever Jay. “I Love You Jay, Will you accept my love?” She said in her knees.

I stood enthralled, astonished by her speech and a confusion started in my mind. Which I wished should not happen, just happened. I know her well and I have a soft feelings for her but Rika was the one whom I love if I’m not wrong. But what about Sara? What should I answer to her? Should I decline it? If Rika was already committed what will I do? Sara thinks I’m love with her but how will I explain her that I’m not in love with her and how will I say that challenge was because of the misunderstanding of intimacy between us. It was the first time I’m hearing that a girl proposed first to boy. I have neither watched in any movies and nor read in any stories so.

She interrupted me by handing over her phone to me.

It showed Drafts. Her draft read ”Jay you are right, I am in love and I have realized it. I need to say you now but I don’t want to lose the challenge. I will win this challenge and confess some other day and forgive me for this and for hurting you. Love you.”

The next draft read ” I wish to add a Love you in the good night and good morning texts every day. Can I send you like that?”

There were other few drafts which said few lines similar to that. It drafts reminded me of my draft which I stored during the challenge. Damn I changed my mobile.

I handed her phone to her and sat in the bench thinking. She is too much in love and it is not the prompt situation to say about Rika. Let me ask her for time.

Sara I am dazed by your proposal but I need to think about this. I will answer you next week. But we can be as we are now whatever the answer is and I promise you for this. I said and we went back to our class and sat next to each other.


P.S. never under estimate or over estimate any love, think well before you answer.